i am feeling terribly lonely. i believe i have started making more of an effort to reach out to people, as miniscule as it is. eveything is just so tiresome. being honest about the way i feel is so incredibly draining and it feels like it is not worth it at all. i am not sure who even believes i am an important part of their life anymore. perhaps i'm not important and that is for the best. it makes it easier to disappear.